I am not sure how to say it. Time is so short and yet I have a long list of things to get done.
My desire is not to live in fear, sadness or regret. So today I will make it a good day.
Taking the time to look at what I do have instead of what I don't have is important.
Not sure how to express this- well... I do know this. Time IS on my side. Because I am the daughter
of the one that has allowed it into creation. The creator of the Universe Yahuah. I will never stop or get tired of acknowledging him in all that I am. Yesterday was not a good day. My life lesson looking back on yesterday was due to the fact that I have not been seeking the Most High and asking what I should do.
It feels like am grown but still living like a child. An unwise child. Always sticking my neck out for others and I end up getting harmed in the process. I am learning that maybe I wished that I was saved so I want to help to save others. How can help people when I can't even help myself out of this hole I'm in? How can I be strong and valiant, when I am missing strength and valiance?
Take a look at the Leopard for example. They live in trees and are apart of the royal cat kingdom. They are fierce, fast, powerful and wise. I want to be like that. My hearts desire is to be like this. But allow others feelings and their needs to come before mine is unwise. In my heart, spirit and my being- I am a protector. I am a warrior mamma Leopard that will never stop protecting her cubs. I realized that the King Lion the Fierce One, my shield and my protector wants me to rely on him.
I have been trying be the source of power instead of looking to the source of power. I feel like the Karate Kid in training. Yah is Mr. Miyagi. Like He's telling me "Wax on. Wax Off" . I'm like "Huh"? "Why"? " I don't understand. Fighting against the process is tiring. When I stop fighting the "why" and not having understanding, it takes away the shalom. When I allow shalom and trust to overflow, it starts to make sense. The Wax On Wax Off teaching is not the act of applying wax on a car, but it's the way and the applications learned that will teach you how to fight in the battle of life. I am the eye of the Leopard. My focus is on the prize. 5 Trust in YAH with all your heart,and lean not on your own understanding;
6 in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.
I will win and be more than a conqueror! I will listen to my Heavenly Father and trust Him even though I can not see.